My Chemical Romance在2013年3月22日宣布解散。一年後2014年3月25日,推出解散後精選,May Death Never Stop You。當中收錄了從未發表的Fake Your Death。
我不喜歡Fake Your Death,那像極了演唱會最後一曲,名副其實的散band歌。
我細心的閱讀歌詞,Fake Your Death是對死亡聳聳肩,那種向上的氣息令我不忍。滲著一種犬儒,妥協。
萬萬不能妥協的。
不可以因為痛苦難行就妥協。
我真是自虐狂。
我喜歡The Light Behind Your Eyes,那是死亡終於到來的坦然接受。我也一早寫過,〈請在我的喪禮上播這首歌〉(內有歌詞)。這是我的安魂曲,也是我留給大家的Famous Last Words。我不行了,要死了,但你們還在的不要放棄呀。即使Fake Your Death的曲風是如何向上正面,而The Light Behind Your Eyes是悲哀沉鬱,我接受不了Fake Your Death的不負責任。在The Light Behind Your Eyes裡Gerard Way明明就唱:「Never let them take the light behind your eyes. One day I’ll lose this fight, As we fade in the dark, Just remember you will always burn as bright」,但在Fake Your Death你竟然說:「Some people watch, Some people pray. But even lights can fade away… But why’d we have to stay?」,究竟是誰給我希望,然後又狠心把光芒吹滅?
主音Gerard Way本身是美術人,畫漫畫做動畫出身,MCR每一張大碟就是一個故事,各有主題。Danger Days那張album以美漫為題,一連幾個MV就是美式英雄/特攝戰隊般的故事。Na Na Na是開場,樂隊成員化身Killjoys,對抗1984 Big Brother那般的邪惡勢力-- Better Living Industries。在Sing的MV裡Gerard Way好像是死了,但留下了尾巴,Killjoys們的故事未完。Gerard Way曾在訪問中對會否延續這個故事不置可否,而事實是沒有再拍出來。
那我就一廂情願地在Danger Days之後那張side-B:Conventional Weapons裡,繼續想像Killjoys們的故事。如果以The Light Behind Your Eyes收結的話,他們真的輸晒比 Better Living Industries,輸給河蟹和理非非的獨裁了。又一個反烏托邦的悲劇故事。即使如此,他還在唱:「Never let them take the light behind your eyes」呀!誰不知MCR要解散了,一切都走到最後最終了,Gerard Way死了,這樣的最後,他竟然留下一首Fake Your Death,唱著「I choose defeat, I walk away, And leave this place」--Gerard Way,你唔可以咁就一走了之呀!!
睇Fake Your Death的Promo,我癲到諗,會唔會係Danger Days之後,佢地想有一個新主題,所以要Killjoys死,要置之死地而後生?唉,我諗得太多了。個Promo入面佢地仲係早年Helena時期呀,好明顯係個時啲片cut出黎啦。
……MCR說解散就解散了。
My Chemical Romance – Fake Your Death
Some people watch
Some people pray
But even lights can fade away.
Some people hope
Some people pay
But why’d we have to stay?
‘Cause even heroes
Get the blues
Or any misery you choose
You like to watch
We like to use
And we were born to loseI choose defeat
I walk away
And leave this place
The same today
Some like to sleep
We like to play
Just look at all that painYou want the heart
Or to be saved
But even good guys still get paid
So watch my back
And keep the blade
I think it got you laid
So fake your death
Or it’s your blame
And leave the lights on when you stay
Take off your clothes
And dream that fame
Come on and feel that shameI choose defeat
I walk away
And leave this place
The same today
Some like to sleep
We like to play
Just look at all that painJust look at all that pain [3x]
Just give me all that pain [3x]I choose defeat
I walk away
And leave this place
The same today
Some like to sleep
We like to play
Just look at all that pain